Monday, 31 August, 2009, 6:23 AM : Jingyuan's 101 mistakes writes:
This few weeks...
I've been through my own examination this past few weeks
It was not definitely a pleasant trip..
Let's say I was onto a tough-rough trip that literally punched myself ALOT of times!
Well...
Here are the bad things about jing yuan!
PS: PLEASE NEVER EVER to learn from me!
Jing yuan always.....
-procrastinates!
-always dazes....when thinking.
-sometimes slow....as i was dwelling in my thoughts.
-occasionally ignores....as she is blur... X.X
-likes to take things at my own pace. pushing me hard will kill me...=x
-doesn't know how to prioritize her time. She wants to do what she want to NOW. (note: this is my reason for not prioritizing... not for any defiance sake...ok?)
And today, (as well as many other days)
I finally realised that jing yuan is someone easily judged from the outside.
Oh yeah wait, I know that I am not the most charismatic.
Not the most nicest.
Not the most kindest.
Not the most spiritual.
Neither am I so easily acceptable.
Neither am I very pretty.
But I do know that I am who I am.
You may think I am the weirdest in this world and finds me weird etc....
It may hurt me like crazy to know it, but yet I still chose not to care what you think about me.
I am totally imperfect but
I did my best to honour you.
And you have dishonoured me.
I am easily hurt but such things and yes, you have hurt me deeply.
I felt totally thrown away by you.
I feel totally useless in every effort I made.
I am never the best to begin with and the best is not what this is all about.
But all you have ever seek is the best....And all you will miss is me.
Jing yuan is easily hated by people......
But never...
have I expected that you are one of them.....
But I choose not to be angry even though I am angered.
If this is what you want, then that jingyuan you think she is will always be that jing yuan.
And I?
What can I do?
But only to learn and try my best to change.
I may be the most detestable things you have ever met
but that does not matter...even if it is to me.
Because I still have to stand up, learn and become a better person.
I am despised but still can be strong.
If this useless and not-much-worth jing yuan can do it.
Those very pretty girls in my CG confirm can do 10times more than me.
So do not say your useless anymore.
For you are saying me as a much more worthless being.
And you...
You're someone important to my life.
Some of you are not as much.
But most are....
Hurting but I still will forgive you...
I will try to.....
Haha.
okays thanks for reading my letter of complaints with very cheem sentence structures! :D
Please do not get negative after reading this!
Cause seriously, your much better than who you think you really are!
So yeah STOP thinking that you are useless~ (for me is really i bo bian also will feel like that one. haha)
YEAH OKAY ESPECIALLY TO PEOPLE LIKE:
Sunthari, Adeline ,Zoe etc etc...
okays ciao~
disclaimer:
"Mado no soto no keshiki
Utsuri kawatte
Kisetsu made ga atashi wo oiteku
Dare yori chikaku ni ite
Fuan no tame ni
Doushite ano toki kizukenakatta
Anata no sugata ga mienaku naru mae ni
Tatta no tatta hitokoto
Ikanaide ga ienakatta
Anata ga shiawase nara sore de
Ii nante zettai ni ienai
Nejima ga ata konna kokoro ga
Doushiyou wo mo nai kurai
Atashi wa kirai"
dangoer:
i am: your worst nightmare.
status: destroying the earth
rated #1 in the top 10 most deadly animal species.
My name is apple, and I'm red. I'm also orange, and I'm orange. I can also be called lemon, and I'm yellow. I'm also grass! Which is (obviously) green. Ditto.
I can be called pie by some of my alien friends from Jupiter and Mars. We like eating chocolate chip brownies and because they're browny and chocolatey and the brownie likes pie. And everyone knows that pie shall conquer the world.
This profile inspiration is given by Xero-sama, who owns a very cute tako that I like to squish a lot. Me and my friends hail from Earth, we live together in a mushroom house and eat american indian paos for breakfast. North South East West.(will be changed soon.meanwhile, just laugh at it!! xD)
