Thursday, 26 February, 2009, 3:28 AM : Struggling writes:
This week is a tough week for me.
Many bad things happened.
And I kept on trying to act strong and all-mighty.
But I know deep down inside I am struggling.
I am dying inside m heart......
Because I know that my love and care for my friends...
Its not being seen...=(
Don't worry! I'm not talking about YOU.
Only one or two knows what I am talking about...
I felt like an idiot this week.
Like a conceited idiot.
Like a thick skin and heart kind of person.
I hate it. I don't like it.
But I did that to act strong in front of some ppl....
haix...
I kept on thinking-
Am i really that bad?
am I really THAT bad?
Am I so horrible?
This time round it isn't about a bunch of boys disturbing me the total wrong way...
It's about girls this time...
It's about friends....=(
I guess I'm really that bad somehow...
Oh well...
Thank you so much Sunthari for encouraging me...
Your perfect in my eyes too! =)
Anyway,
I will try my best to change myself!
Even if you hate me for being so stiff and "strong"..
I will try my best...
I know I stink inside out..
But who cares! God still loves me and many people still!!!
I have little but yet I must be genuinely strong for those little things!
I MUST TRY MY BEST TO BE A BETTER PERSON!!!
hey my dear cloud!
I'm so sorry...
I shouldn't have done that...
I want to say it so many times because...
I really felt bad that I did something like that.....
and I want bear responsibility for what I've said and done...
I'M SO SORRY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Ciao....
Be stronger than me...
CHEERZ! :)
Labels: STRONGER :)
disclaimer:
"Mado no soto no keshiki
Utsuri kawatte
Kisetsu made ga atashi wo oiteku
Dare yori chikaku ni ite
Fuan no tame ni
Doushite ano toki kizukenakatta
Anata no sugata ga mienaku naru mae ni
Tatta no tatta hitokoto
Ikanaide ga ienakatta
Anata ga shiawase nara sore de
Ii nante zettai ni ienai
Nejima ga ata konna kokoro ga
Doushiyou wo mo nai kurai
Atashi wa kirai"
dangoer:
i am: your worst nightmare.
status: destroying the earth
rated #1 in the top 10 most deadly animal species.
My name is apple, and I'm red. I'm also orange, and I'm orange. I can also be called lemon, and I'm yellow. I'm also grass! Which is (obviously) green. Ditto.
I can be called pie by some of my alien friends from Jupiter and Mars. We like eating chocolate chip brownies and because they're browny and chocolatey and the brownie likes pie. And everyone knows that pie shall conquer the world.
This profile inspiration is given by Xero-sama, who owns a very cute tako that I like to squish a lot. Me and my friends hail from Earth, we live together in a mushroom house and eat american indian paos for breakfast. North South East West.(will be changed soon.meanwhile, just laugh at it!! xD)
